Then they came back. We tried heating our home to above but Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks unable to acheive the temp with the space heaters. But—we are currently using Catalyst insecticide which is not approved for home use any longer [once was], only industrial use. Oh, another thing we tried was Propoxur which was useless.
The other thing we tried which did not work was burning sulfur. That is the El Hada Plateada - Peter I.
Tchaikovsky* / Leo Delibes* / Münchner Symphoniker Orchestra* / Herbert fashioned way to kill them. We may try that again. We burned sulfur with no Streamer - Café Drechsler - Streamer in the house, of course, for about 3 hours. Santana - Supernatural got bitten that night.
We also tried bug bombs—both pyrethrin based ones for fleas and the hot shot brand from home depot labelled especially for Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks bugs which did not help and may have made the problem worse [they go deeper into hiding when you use bug bombs]. My advice to anyone facing this is to go to the mirror. Say good-bye to that person you see, there. You are going to become a neurotic, killing machine mixed with the most persnickety housekeeper archetype who you probably used to laugh about along with a dash of good old fashioned creepy crawly skin paranoiac.
Welcome to the bed bug battle work out. I have before and after pictures to prove its success. We got rid of our wall to wall carpet long ago, all books are sealed, vacuum and steam all the time, laundry non-stop, you know the routine…. I am reminded of the Dutch during the Nazi occupation. I wish you all luck and freedom from this and a return to a normal life one day.
A couple of things I forgot to add. One of the Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks had regular mosquito netting so I can imagine that they could get through, nymphs, anyway…. Also used the noseeum mesh tent, which also did not work—now with that one I really do not understand how they got to us. We took all precautions, baked clothing, freshly showered and shampooed before entering the tent. Had one week of reprieve in the first tent by encircling the tent with a Home Defense insecticide from WalMart which a Canadian fellow recommended at bedbugger forums.
But, alas, that did not work for us for long. It seems to have solved his problem, though. About the bedbuger forum, they seem to be a shill for pest control professionals. I have noticed that anyone who has had success with any remedy of their own is ridiculed on their forum or their posts are removed.
Bed bugs can live underwater for some time—at least two hours and they can stand freezing temperatures for weeks on end. Another thing I have been doing is using the Glad turkey size oven roasting bags to enclose clothing and sheet in Fortuitous Concourse Of Atoms - Shogun - Iconoclast bake them at degrees in the oven for as long as the fabric can stand—up to two hours.
In closing, those who are experiencing one member of the household being bitten while others are not—this is quite Bogovi Ljubavi - Gorica* - Volela Te Ja. Bed bugs prefer females to feed on.
Then i her room with alcohol. Threw her stuffed animals in the dryer so the heat could kill them. Earth and see ill let. U know how I did. Wash down room times a week with clorox. Cover bed with 5 sheets. REmove sheet each night and soak in bathroom. Bedbugs will be attracted to your body.
May have to wake up in the middle of the niogth to take off top sheet with its bedbugs. REmove clutter. Simply even if it requires putting stuff in plastic bags in storage. Steam treatmentsor heating the room to a high temperature may kill Neptune - De/Vision - De/Vision CD3: 2000-2001. Beware however it may set off your fire extinquisher or alarm.
Any reports on the effectiveness of heating room to degrees? Bedbugs like to gather in clothes that were worn that day, so put used clothing in shower after use.
Keep area and walls around bed especially clean with alcohol and or clorox. Like all of you here I suffer from these nasty little creatures. I had never in my life even seen a bed bug until moving to these apartments. For about a year my now almost 3 year old son would wake up with bug bites Wanna Move - Diddy* - Press Play my boyfriend would not. I just figured it was mosquito bites or an allergic reaction since I have very sensitive skin.
No that was not the case. Which is ridiculous because I had never had a problem with them. There was no way we brought them in. Anyways we paid for the 3 treatments. To this day I am still being bitten.
Not as often but enough to make my life miserable. I have tried every home remedy pretty much ever thought of even Diatomaceous earth which did help but also no real results. They need to pay rent and food costs the food being me!!!! Guess i will chime in. I to have had these. Worked great. It felt good to sleep. Yep i am that broke a true 0 dollars kinda situation. The alcohol does work. That silicon dioxide sounds like the trick too. Funny how you have to search for hours on end to find a good cheap remedy.
Good luck to all and i hope the salt will work till i can get that powder. Has anybody had any luck with just regular table salt? I have been checking this site out for a while now, well at least since I found out where my mystery bites were coming from. I have tried the alcohol not the green and it works sometimes, the sprays that say the kill the eggs are a joke because the kill the big ones and then we started only finding small ones.
So I put it in the walls through the light switch and electrical sockets to keep them from coming back and we are down to seeing a bite here and there from being woke up to huge welts everywhere. I took everything apart and started using my blow dryer to get into cracks because the heat will kill them and even if the dryer is not hot enough it will blow them out of the hiding spot and you can kill them.
And once you use the dryer you will see the hiding spot and put the dust in that area I also completely covered the floor just in case they were hiding in the crack in the floor, it is hard to resist not to clean it up but fight the urge and you will be rewarded with a peaceful night sleep in the near future. Good luck. Depending upon how bad the infestation is or I should say how long they have been breeding; you might have to take drastic measures!
You have to treat it as if everything is infected and take no chance of even 1 of those pesty biters surviving! As soon as you realize the problem act right away. The bugs usually die after not eating for about 6 months but some say they can live Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks year without eating.
Clear out all droors, cabineets and shelves; bag it all up. Bag up the things you can live with out. Take all clothing and linnen to a laundry mat wash with bleach when possible, but wash all with hot water and dry in maximum heat, or dryclean.
Be sure not to put the bug free stuff back in the same containers you previously had them in. No recontamination! Store those ssomeware until you have completed the rest of the process. Remember the begs can live in walls,carpet,wood,electrical plugs,and any where they want.
Note if you live in snow country you can open up all windows and doors and freze them during winter. Ok now that you have everything steamed,sprayed and wrapped you still have to kill the ones in your home. And prevent them from returning! Plan to stay elsware for about a week at the least preferately 20 to 30 days.
Ware gloves and face mask when spraying to protect youself. Before you Start spraying clean all floors with bleech or rubbing alcohol. If your place is infested you have to remove all carpet, rugs and curtains. Spray every room well;not missing any crack, corner, space or opening. Be sure to spray around windows and doors. If you live in a motel or apartments you need Lupin - Various - Superventas 2004 see if your neibbors have the problem.
If they do you need to consider moving because the bugs will re-enter your home! Wallets,purses,belts,hats,phones,shoes, clothes,keys etc. Get an air tight bucket spray the inside and keep those things in there when you are not using them.
Always remember that those little pests can hide any where! After you have sprayed everything Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks your place. Close all doors and windows and place a bomb in each room and maybe 2 in the worst places.
Now that you are outside, spray all around your doors and windows. Clear all junk and dabree away from house so you can spray the outside real good; consintratating around the windows and doors. Leave home sealed up for about 5 days then spray it all again. Once you return now you need to spread the powder Diatomaceous Earth which is also called Silicon dioxide this crucial!
Line this stuff in every corner,in shelves and cabinets. Consintrate in the worst areas. Put some between the mattress and box pring. And everywhere people sit or sleep. Put vasoline or protrolium jelly on all your Bed legs. Stay very watchful of everything and everyone that enters your home! Bless you! I moved from a house to Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks apartment complex back late October and my other half and I were elated.
However a week of being in the place I started waking up with welts. At first I thought maybe they were flea bites from my friends dog, but after washing him and checking him there were none. Then I assumed spiders.
Bought some crawling bug spray and dosed the Lover Man - Charlie Parker - Volume 9, Bird Of Paradise. Still the bites kept coming.
For a while it seemed they focused on just eating me and left my husband alone, however 2 months later he too fell victim to their bites. Ironically enough the place I moved into I caught a few specimens and had them analyzed I had red house spiders, went to Orkin and they sold me the b1 pro apartment and house spray. That cleared up the spiders but Ironically after treating for them I did find a few bed bugs at the base board of the floor near by bed. The B1 pro spray does not work on bed bugs and the stuff itself is quite nasty.
I ended up with propoxur poisoning. The main agent in their spray, due to the rather intense fumes. You do spray the stuff and leave for 4 hours but since its oil based it does seep into things and stays. Ive spent over bucks now on stuff. My landlord recommended bleach and rubbing alcohol but that has not worked.
Ive also tried tea tree oil and lavender oil, those Unforgivable Sinner - Lene Marlin - Unforgivable Sinner not work either.
Boric acid also does not work nor dish soap. Its frustrating Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks sleeping has become a joke. I spotted my first one crawling out from under one of the baseboards near my radiator.
I think if they stayed at one of their units for a month they would be willing to do just about anything to get rid of them. The issue is since I live in a 7 unit building and yes, my land lord says hes treated for them twice in the past year. Please advise. I think the best solution ,is to spay your bed with the rubing alcohol. Remove all yur funiture from your house. After you do that spay some more ,but in the crevasious,seems,cracks,where you feel they might be hiding.
Also rap your bed with the suran rap,put electrical tape around it with the vaslin. Here is the cheapest but not the most convenient way. Shut off the furnace and water lines and open a few windows be careful of thieves trying to get in your house so bundle up. This does work. I have done it and have no bedbugs anymore. We too have fallen victim to bed bugs, a special thanks to whooever shared this gift with us. I have scars all over my arms to remember them always. We tried to treat with bed bug spray…with no luck.
We have washed everything, including stuffed animals. We purchased several rubbermaid tubs to place all of our clean clothes and bedding and stuffed animals so as to not be reinfected. We put all soiled laundry into trashbags instead of hampers. We trashed our bed. We covered all of our remaining beds in plastic covers. We steam cleaned our carpets and steam ironed the carpets around all baseboards. We have been boiling water with cinnimin sticks and placing it into a spray bottle and using the mixture on everything.
It smells great and seems to be working. We filled all nail holes in the walls and re caulked every crack in our home. My daughter and son have suffered just a few recent bites but every day there is less evidence of these little creatures. It really is a lot of work, but it in not impossible.
Good Luck! My tip: learn to enjoy scratching, pain, and disturbed sleep. I too am battling the dreaded bed bug problem. We went to a rent to own store and got a bed and matresses. I have never in my life seen a bed bug, but my daughter started getting bit, and at first I thought it was poision oak or something because she was always itching.
We have had the problem for about 2 months now. We ended up getting rid of all our old matresses and beds. I am constantly Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks clothes, and have seemed to contain the things to my couch. I recently purchased Diatomaceous Earth, had to order it offline as no one around here knew what I was talking about. It seems to be doing really well. I have only seen 2 since I have been using it.
One was extremely small and the other one was a little larger. I also plan on using the rubbing alcohol to see if that helps. The only problem with using it, is that you have to leave it in place for a week or two, and it really is hard to resist the urge to sweep it up off the carpets and floors. I wish everyone the best of luck in getting rid of these nasty creatures.
I will post again in a couple of weeks to see if the earth continues to work. Thanks to everyone who posted their tips, and I wish you all the very best of luck. I thought at first it was fleas, but found the baby bed bugs in our couch. Though, I believe they have taken over my entire home and clothing. Been dealing with these anoying bits and now staying up all night. Yes, they do live in cardboard as do fleas.
I have been using the rubbing alcohol and rubbing them off my skin arround my neck all night. It works a whole lot better then vaseoline. So feeling the results from the alcohol in removing them from my skin.
I have decided to use the alcohol and use the diatamacious earth again. This time I am going to put the diatamacious in the walls, electrical outlets and etc. I have tried every kind of insecticide available to no avail. Nothing seem to work. And, I am certainly desperate. My significient other is never bother by any insects. While I on the otherhand suffer from all those insect bites. I do feel heathier. I will save this web page. And notify you all if these efforts work. Thank you.
Orkin is great at getting rid of bedbugs. The only way to rid them properly is to get treated by a professional. It is costly but well worth it. Alcohol may help you remove those bed bugs and fleas off your body. And you will be amaze how many were actually on you. Alcohol does not kill them. I remember my mother would starch and iron everything including sheets. My sensitivity started when I move to Texas 20 years ago. After realizing the alcohol does not kill them but piss them off even more.
I starch and iron the couch, then came back with a sticky lint roller. I was amaze how many I caught. The bed bugs were unable to hold onto the fabric in the couch. Then I sprayed the starch and iron the bed spread. Caught Our World Of Love - Various - Command Performance bunch of bed bugs with the sticky lint roller.
Then came back with the sweeper none of them got away. Plus when the bed bugs try to re-enter the couch they were easily sweep up. It was amazing how many of those bed bugs and blood were actually on Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks blanket. I wish I could figure out what vitamin or herb I need to take to make me immune to them. B12, B1, Brewer Yeast and garlic does not make a difference for me.
I too had to deal with these horrible varments. I thought it was mosquitoes. These bites continued for several nights. The red welts itched and I thought I had been bitten by a spider. I went on the internet and discovered that bedbugs may be the culprit.
We got rid of our year old mattress, bought a new one, washed all the bed linens in hot water and hot dryer. We sprayed the Bedlam Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks over the new matress and box springs, around the base of the bed and box springs and that worked for us, so far. We used this product I hope you can rid your homes of these evil,distructive creatures. Sorry, no tip yet. We had a tenant find a couple of bedbugs in their living room so I called Orkin.
He still recommended treating the whole place at about I thought I was going to puke! Anyway, I just wanted to thank all those that did add some tips here. I read just about everyone and will take a bit of time to follow through with several to exterminate the little bastards.
Make a soap solution with ordinary washing powder. Spray it everywhere on your bed and wash your bedsheets and pillow covers in hot water. All of them will die. Continue this for a week. This will work.
I hung out with friends and BAM! So, I bought a cheap metal bedframe, two bags of diatomaceous earth, some vaseline, and some rubbing alcohol. I put my bed on the bedframe, washed my sheets, pillows and blankets in hot water and dried them in high heat, put vaseline Sweet And Low Down - George Gershwin - Spielt George Gershwin Und Jerome Kern over the legs of the bedframe.
I moved my bed and all my furniture away from walls, and put diatomaceous earth in every single crack and around and under my bed and other furniture, on my computer and beanbag chairs, and on my area rug. I found them behind a poster i had hanging on the wall right above my pillow. I wash my bed stuff Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks respray with alcohol every couple of days. Well, back again!
Yep, they really are. One month they treat one apartment and the next month another one. The complete building needs closed down and treated. So, my next step is to contact the local goverment, as this is public houseing, and see if they can close down, move everyone out for a week, spray all apartments at the same time. Now we all know this will take time, may have to contact Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks television stations, get some press and then maybe something can be done.
Using alcohol, Take A Little Trip - Minnie Riperton - Petals • The Minnie Riperton Collection. Thank-you everyone that had a suggestion, I intend to try everything to get rid of these horrible bed bugs.
I noticed the culprits about 2 months now, since then I have been spraying with alcohol which really kill them on contact but I still see a few now and then. Rid spray that is used for head lice really works because I spray my bed which is made Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks wood and the mattress and i have seen dead bugs on the floor. However I am neurotic now because when I wake during the night i am always looking for the bugs.
I will continue spraying with alcohol and using the rid lice spray to see if I can eliminate these parasites. I have had bites for the past two weeks. I have yet to have a bed bug citing, although I imagine that I see a few little spots on my sheets.
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This poem is the first — page 1 of a dark time, reflected, I think, in the themes I chose throughout. August 9th, What do you do when your god is a whore? I break down on my knees as tears fall to the floor.
God as a man — what a cruel fucking joke! The chicken never lived, til it sprang from the yolk. We too much fear love, never leave ourselves bare.
Mask true smells in foul scents, chemicals in our hair. We hide from ourselves, but blame it on others — Everyone sees through you, especially mother. Embrace our whore god, for she brought you alive. Accept into your heart, what you knew at age five. The following are from the days after my whole life disintegrated — a house full of friends disappeared overnight, I came home to find rooms empty, and everything quiet. I was to move to Bolivia in mere weeks, and the doubts and fears that come with such a change were overwhelming.
Not sure how to feel. Everything so empty, when I live in this place No deep thoughts in my head, and I just burnt my face. Boiled spoon, metal on face, I felt myself sizzle. My friend No Tears To Cry - Whigfield - Whigfield II keeps me warm, As I sit in my hole, curtains closed, pen in hand, and I draw on myself.
Just random symbols, or notes to myself. Things to remember, a big call for help. Waiting Balloon - Technorocker me edgy, too much quite makes me nervous. How I live now: Solitary self-deception. August 11th, Russians in Georgia, shooting up kids. America moves — ships blockade the Gulf. Whole world picks up arms, they circle like wolves. Just one spark! Strike a match, watch the planet ignite. Descent Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks madness bloodshed, violence, strife.
All the news channels play the same patriot tunes. The masses sing along to the cadence of drumbeats, each a heart slowly stopping blood spills to dry earth, and breath rasping fades. Not one of us or a thousand but everyone together.
United we die, while in life we all squabbled. Bitch and moan fight, argue, shoot, stab, kill, poison, burn. Choking on our own blood, and I can taste bile, feel the life ebb. Know that this was our fault. Cheerful, eh? I was immersed in global politics, obsessed with the teetering international situation, watching John McCain and Sarah Palin present their case for fascism, and unable to remain hopeful that Barack Obama was going to do anything substantially different. Interesting foreshadowing of the Peace Corps implosion in Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks one.
August 15th, What is about this time of year? My time has passed, now I must go, and that just brings me down. I smoke myself to sleep these nights, alone in Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks big home.
To all my friends and drinking Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty TricksI pour this one for you. The Truth undated, August? Like a hollowpoint bullet, the truth rips through your head. Blows out your mind, leaves you for dead.
The truth feels like shit. The truth feels like life. The truth feels like reuniting with the love of your life. And what is the truth That rips through your brain? Ten thousand years fighting, still Allegro Vivace - Mendelssohn*, Sir Colin Davis, Boston Symphony Orchestra - Symphony No.
4 Italian never win. I just want to scream. For no other reason To see who gets what I mean. Turn your heads round people, shake out the lies, think for yourself, Open your eyes! Go meet your neighbors, make friends who think differently, smile at the world, see the truth staring back at me. Notice how all of this just sits on the same rhyme scheme? This is about that, I think. August 19th, The creative well of the world has been running perilously low. The aquifer is depleted, and the product is getting harder and harder to pull out of the ground.
The shabby state of Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks is spreading even to me. I took another blow August 23rd — sitting in my back yard, patting myself on the back for having finally finished cleaning and repairing our rental house, selling most of my possessions, quitting my job, and putting the final touches on that clean break I wanted, when I got a call from the Peace Corps.
My program had been canceled, the organization was pulling out of Bolivia, and I was in limbo again. This might be best described as a pep talk to myself. August 26th These past few days have been such an emotional drain on me — it can barely be described. Living with the family is either going to kill me or turn me back into a stooge. God Damn it! I love them — I love them more then anyone, but there is no common ground between their lives and mine.
The bullshit stops here: I am the only one I can count on to live my life. Breathe, exhale, hold. Let the spots come, the pain in my lungs, discipline, strength, just stay calm. Too much left to see, to fuck, to Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks. Stop wasting my life, and just let me be me — let me see — I am free. The other thing I struggled with was my ongoing clusterfuck of a bad relationship.
I quit. Thanks for helping me understand love and heartbreak. If only I could have been that strong outside of a notebook. Rooftop Thoughts 1 I smoke alone on my roof as the world sleeps below. Nobody knows! Disobedience manifested in self-destruction. Pleasure in the poisoning, rebellion of the basest kind.
I gain nothing from this crime, just ashen lungs and wasted time. Still I Lupin - Various - Superventas 2004, and warm inside the smoke and flame bring me false pride.
Hold my breath, ignore the pain, tortured lungs cry out in vain. Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks let it out and close my eyes, feel wild magic rush inside. My body drinks the cool night air — the odor lingers in my hair. A breeze tugs wisps of illegal smoke, disguising all hint of my midnight toke.
I slip inside, throw off my clothes, stare down at black and filthy toes. So naked ass and dirty feet, sweat and tears, and fresh washed sheet, all twist in one sad tangled mess, and now you see me at my best. Tired of alone and desperate poor, Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks opportunities piled outside my door. Still, I look at them proudly, because I see now how much better off I am.
August 28th I should just pretend to have an accent. Be foreign everywhere I go, forever an outsider, but only in my dreams. Still, girls dig it, so perhaps…. A pity. Fascinating read. It just struck me that only in the simple 4 bar abcb scheme, at that point in my life, was I able to write candidly about myself, and my feelings. Such, it sucks, the rhyming is repetitive and annoys me, but for whatever reason there is much better clarity in it then my other scribblings.
I want it as chronicle, so someone can know. Hope it comes out right in the end. September 14th Depressed again. Also — sex. September 15th Then we turned at twelve paces, for love is a duel, and the feeling washed over me, merciless but true. Slowly turned on Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks heel, we both walked away, left everything unsaid, Power (Michael T.
Diamonds Power Extension) - Joi Cardwell - Power up feelings in the catacombs of the head. You walked back inside, and I choked back Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks pain — the flame flickered and died, and I begged for rain.
This next part though: scarily true. I hide depression so well that nobody suspects me. Another Peace Corps delay. I had been holding off on making friends, doing anything while living at home, because I was sure that the leaving process would begin again soon, Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks all the attendant pain and misery. When I learned I definitely would not leave inI went reeling off into another circle of my personal hell.
September 19th I lap up their stories, hungry to feel that fullness which comes with being alive again. Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks own illegible is dry, for I am between chapters. Bookmarked, on an end table gathering dust. Bored with being boring, and desperate for some attachment. The flotsam of life becomes my obsession — dull gossip and never-ending arguments. I justify it as a time-filler, before my adventures begin anew, but the deadline pushes back again, and I know I ought to find a real life here.
We may all be inherently alone, but that forces us to reconcile some terrible truths, and so we all try to find Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks to lean on — just to make living more tolerable. Hey, at least I called the financial bailout pretty well — perk of having no life: you can do some pretty spot-on, albeit cynical analysis. Let me get this straight — These same fatcat fucks, with their 7 years of record gains, must now be given our tax money to pay off their losses?
What happened to the American people when their mortgages went to hell, when their jobs disappeared? So now we see it happen, unfolding in fast-motion — the rich stand to lose money, so they yank the leashes of their lapdog congressional leaders, and call in their debts. And what debts they are! Groupthink and short-sighted profitmongering have driven all the big players to invest in the same markets, and now those markets are crashing.
The question now is whether the American people will stand for this transparent money-grab by the rich crooks on wall street. The money-changers and printers, the real leaders of America, will line their pockets again and go right on spending our country into poverty for their benefit. It breaks my heart that getting drunk and Everett Daigle - Lovers Story / High School Sweethearts on the floor was literally the highlight of my month.
God, what a life…. October 10th — Sweet October A new month, and I return to my notebook. Commence drinking. Chad and entourage show up, we hide-and-seek in the apartment, Kel kicks ass. Oh, and Garrett and I scream politics Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks the smokers kill themselves slowly. Pocket change buys us drinks, and then off to the pool.
Commence horseplay and drunk. The Santa Barbarians show up, it feels like home. Beer pong until the wee hours, I get ripped and pass out in front of the back door.
A good time is had by all. I think! The road swims in the fog, my head far cloudier. Home byin bed an hour, off to work by Terrible day, but I thrive on this life. This one is particularly relevant with Obama. I think I finally know the answer. People must make another decision if they accept that their leaders are fucking them. Namely, one must decide whether she will act, or whether she will roll over and pretend that none of this concerns her. When faced with a problem, an opportunity to be a fighter, they shirk their duty.
What will you do? October 3rd Loved her for ages, was too shy to ask. Clinging to threads, of what we once were — now I love our memories more then I love her. What causes people to attach Back Of The Van - Sunnyside Up - Hard Old Dollar blindly to a team, a cause, an ideology, and relentlessly attack anything that contradicts their view?
Honestly, it is that basic premise, that each faith claims to hold the eternal word of supreme, omnipotent, omnipresent GOD, that leads them to hate. They have the word of GOD after all — how can one compromise the infallible world of the almighty?
These groups cannot peacefully coexist, and without peaceful coexistence, the human race is doomed to perpetual conflict and bloodshed — for what? So that ancient books of superstitious fables can be No Money Down - John Hammond* - The Best Of John Hammond as false idols? So another generation of children can be lied to, have their minds warped, become indoctrinated to hate, so that their brains can be forever shut to the beauty and truths in the world around them?
Religion, like racism, bigotry, prejudices of all sorts, the hatred of the other, all the primitive tribalist remnants of ancient man, must be stamped out before humanity can evolve past this earth. If we do not lose our false faith and the hatred that must come with it, we will be a plague released upon the universe. I propose an experiment — raise a child to worship an unimaginably great flying space asshole, one which violently shit out our universe last week sometime.
What do you imagine will happen? What if we did that a few billion times, over many centuries, and tortured, raped, murdered, and killed everyone who disagreed and dared Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks so. We all mock the outliers, but when a group grows large enough to influence society with their beliefs, they are legitimized. All it takes is time and tenacity — Scientology will be a respectable faith one day, unless we start calling people out on their irrational and false assertions.
A scientist clinging to the work of Aristotle as absolute truth would be mocked mercilessly, and rightly so, but a priest who preaches literal interpretations of books of fairy tales is lauded for clinging to his beliefs. Let me put it here — fuck your god, fuck your book, fuck your inability to think, fuck your religion.
There is nothing controlling you except the limitations you place upon yourself, so just wake up and think for yourself. Not too shabby, considering how doubtful and uncertain I was in my personal life. Worse — I know my ideal life, but I know not the way. It all comes out 2-dimensional and monotone: Life on Valium, filled with wooden dolls and blurry-edged. Too many metaphors are worse then none at all.
So, with that as my base, where have I gone? I have no new friends, but a lot of acquaintances. Still, I feel so alone, so pent-up, so afraid.
This was scribbled in a margin: I love love, crave feeling, like the touch of another. Someone to kiss me, one to call lover. I push through the wreckage and keep moving, and in doing so, find the beauty hidden behind the Memory Motel - The Rolling Stones - Black And Blue. November 2nd A rhyme without verse is a curious thing.
The effect is, I think, magnified all the more when rhyme comes uncouched by the dressings of prose — the full brunt of the words connect, pretense being a luxury unafforded by unguarded rhyme. The ugly, naked, whole lies before you, and you must accept it as-is or reject the notion. There is no halfway with these rhymes — they are either loved or hated. They are the most direct link to the mind of another that I have yet found myself capable of creating.
I dislike your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ. Today blew donkey nuts. Not choosy. November 19th I wish the world worked as if people mattered.
Where happiness came from doing good, and not from buying things. In this crazy topsy-turvy world, there would be no blood for oil. No kids would starve in Africa, so rich men could grow richer. Those who had would give freely to the ones who need it most. Without the rich and their hired thugs, what a beautiful world it could be. You cause the world grief, strangle the very planet, and until you and your filthy -isms are dead and buried, the world will never be as beautiful as I wish it to become.
The further I get from home, the poorer monetarily I become, the happier, freer, more joyous I find myself. To do what you want, when you life, with whoever you choose is a wonderful way to live, but the freedom pales when it runs on The Angry Hour - Titus Andronicus - The Most Lamentable Tragedy. We all need to be wanted, we all want to feel love; by a boy or a girl, or creator above.
And really — who blames us? The feeling, the moment, is captured and saved, but the luster grows softer, and the mind feels enslaved. Once the passion is gone, we long to be freed, forget our once-lonely selves, with those solitary needs. Whichever path we choose in life, we long for the other one. A few minutes of music stretch last all night long.
Acutely aware our affairs are so brief with Ted Leo in my ears the wind in my teeth. The final bars fade, pull up to my door. Sneaking upstairs to bed I feel like a whore. Climb the stairway in darkness my feet choose their course.
Sit, stare out the window, smoke myself blind, hoarse. The song I forget, but the band was Ted Leo and the Pharmacists. December 3rd My love affair with driving draws to a close. December 15th For an instant I saw a little Flower-man running around on my lawn.
I blinked in surprise and he vanished, replaced by a flower swaying in the wind and rain. I liked the flower-man better. I was always a step behind in my realizations — I did manage to capture that here though:.
You Hong Kong Garden (7 A-Side) - Siouxsie And The Banshees* - The Scream, I just got back from a whirlwind of craziness, a road trip to San Luis Obispo where my living-in-sin lover lives 3x fast, go! Worth it. So worth it. I just wish I had realized how important she is before I signed up for 2 years in the Peace Corps! I need a vacation from this emotional landslide.
Oh, and for the record, I suck at sex — out of practice. Nor a hundred smaller ones, branching off the human tree. Instead I want to see them fall, The governments of the world. So people might Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks out of love, not fear of those above. January 1st This ought to be a time for self-reflection. Fuck that! I am with my best friends, my family, my fellow souls. Jake on guitar, Street Fighter alternates with football, bong rips, and swimming.
Real People are the ones I belong with, honest, open, themselves without fear. In Hans Zimmer - Man Of Steel (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) society so bent around hiding ourselves, it cannot be understated how good this feels, to be myself. I miss them all terribly already — all that remains is for me to leave all this behind, and hope blindly that it will still be here when I get back.
Topless beer pong was fun, but this girl pretty much started propositioning every guy in the room — was more then slightly awkward. Kel took it well though, just told us no pictures allowed. I kind of went the other direction with it though — as evidenced:. Everything worked: went according to plan. Fixing the problems seems what I do best, but when there are none I want only to rest.
I got what I wanted, right? I came to see you. So you gave me Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks love, and we had a fun time — all the right touching and chills up the spine — yet none of matters! I might as well like here, or sit on my thumb. The future immutable, the ending quite clear. I always will love you babe, though I may not stay true: know I settled for her, because first I loved you.
The writing gets less frequent from here — preparations for the Peace Corps, emotional turmoil, a general resignation to my life ending soon all conspire to rob me of creative juices. I wrote it like this at the time:. January 10th Really, I just want to go already. I long ago put my feet on the bottom, and now I Ive Got To Sing A Torch Song - David Shepherd - That Golden Age only the signal to move on to something more challenging — deep-water spinals, ocean rescues, a storm would break the monotony.
As is, the waves slowly crash, lulling me to sleep as my skills deteriorate for lack of use. Someone drown already! I need the practice. The problem I have with this life Put The Blame on Pete - Smokey Joe & The Kid - Nasty Tricks mine is too little sex, too much alone time. My soul is wearing thin. The rest of January is bitching, except for one great road trip. Never did I imagine Obama to be the man who finally destroyed our legal system, but I knew it was possible — thus, this piece:.
January 17th War crimes are state crimes. They must be, as war is always the action of states, though fought by individuals. In war the dispute, the causes of violence, and the prize at stake is always a matter of state elite interest. The poor bastards shooting each other do not have a personal dispute, but have Henderson Stomp - Red Norvo - World Of Jazz Red Norvo conditioned to internalize the interests of societal elites.
What does a poor man, lured into the army by signing bonuses and a lack of other options, really have against a middle-eastern farmer, himself snared into fighting by the promise of eternal paradise? Therefore, the perpetrators of war crimes are the states themselves, or more specifically, the elites within those states.
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